these few days i was really sad and moody..
i found myself very useless...
i am not so good in handle my problems anymore,
i am not able to accept all the things that happened around me positively...
am i that worst now???
I felt bad towards the patient, another young MR.TAN again..
i was totally not confident toward myself to do any procedures,
again and again my hand was shaking in front of the patient
and the worst thing is he noticed my "parkinson's disease."
I just felt bad for the patient
how can he be so unlucky that get such a nurse to taking care over him.
The first day i did the STO at the nose- hand was super super shaking.... shake until I can't get the knot, until the teacher asked me to take a deep breath, until the patient says your hand shaking kah... SPEECHLESS
2nd day- Suture removal at the hand- hand still shaking... better... but i take long time to hold the suture and cut it... patient's eyes was widely open and look at us,
he must be thinking what am i doing, how can i take so much time to cut the suture...
the situation Is very KAN JIONG....
After that- near the end of the shift, patient said to us: you have to go and find other patient cut already, I have no more suture for you to cut ..
the word seems like so cruel... i know i did so bad towards him and give him a bad impression...
So sorry for frightened him throughout this week.
hope he will get well soon la..
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