我的朋友再哪里

陈伟权 陈精玲
庄文安 庄绿敏
邱正元 林仪恒
阮玲玲 唐幸娟
梁宝莹 涂佑诚
涂茂盛 涂俪媚
李素芬 何进维
卢雯秀 杨碧珠
魏秀珠 谢绿芳
陈莉娜 林陪润
沙富安 索列
涂佩莹

成功把小学六年级的同学给记起来了！

1253am 10-12-2010 pm shift at s2

I am looking forward for my holiday...
I just finished my shower ready to sleep now...
Is very super tired now..
But not in the mood now...
I am gonna have three weeks vacation....
Yes!!!! This is Wat I am waiting for...

My 20th birthday

Is another year again...
Wat makes the different today..
1st I received over hundred wishes from u ppl on the Facebook..
2nd I will not get good performance for my practical, same as previous year..
3rd go and hv dinner with my roomate..candle night dinner... Haha
4th during worship, all the student sing birthday songs for me and prayed for me.... (very paiseh la... Buat bodoh in front) anyway thank you for the prayer
5th I got a necklace from my housemate yene and suet Chen...
6th I got my delivery baskin robin... As my cake, my lame lame junior put a candle on it and again she sing birthday song for me... Wat a special ways of celebration.... Wakaka...
7th hahaha.. Actually all my beloved friends were not forgetting me... Hehehe... I got a birthday cake! Is chocolate plus cheese cake... Emm... A little bit touch lo... Again another birthday song...
So today I got three birthday songs!!!!
Today it may be a precious day for me... But then for someone it may be a bad day... My Mak Pian uncle pass away today... He was my patient before... He is cute and is already very very old man with only spoke Cantonese... May he rest in peace....

悲哀

一次又一次被我看到我最不想看到的你！ 什么时候你才会变回从前的你！还以为是你的在乎所以给我这一切，可是我看到的。 忍吧忍吧，再忍吧。 让自己平静下来准备考试吧！今天就当作是个教训，谁叫你不懂得坚持主见。 望着海，听着海浪声， 一个人凌晨坐在海边的感觉蛮不错的！加油呸！

TIME FOR BLAMMING AGAIN...

oh my god...

Final exam is coming soon...

left 4 more days for me to prepare for 3 subject...

Is really challange me..

No revision week for us..

working more than 8 hours full shift everyday...

physically and emotionally tired...

where to get energy to sit down and do revison...

Working in ward is just practice the skills,

no post conference where to get revision on disease...

Everyday day also serve medcine basic care..

where is the time for case study..

What i can say is all of you are genius...

what u all have gone through doesn't meant that we should have it..

please be more kind and considerate to us laaaaaaa.....

POD

Feeling not bad today..

Manage to function,

even not so good..

but is ok...

able to sleep, able to eat...able to laugh..

Hey friend, dun worry i am ok...

i felt the pain

another attack again ..
i have to handle it wisely, final exam is coming in two one week time,
please give ma a clear mind to do my preparation..
as i cant afford to pay for 60k..
i wish i could be a person without feelings.
i dun not wan to be foolish anymore,
but he seems like can't get what i meant~
why should him blamed on me~
always and always...
forgive and forgive~~ this is what i usually have to do..
or else he will always pretend nothing happen..
but I can't!
i was really tired in handling it
can u just tell me what u want
and can u just listen to me if u still a human being!
What i need is just your support and concern for me to go through the tough time..
Cant u help me...
In your eyes noe is just money and money, friend and friends...
What else u know about me..
i dun not want u to give me your money to replace u..
that is not what i wan..
u were saying your earning money is important,
but how about me..
study and be a nurse also important for me, did you know that.
i am not mad, just stubborn because of u.
I can fully agree that after being in a relationship u will lost all your friends...
it is so true..
i felt innocent...
i was trying to sacrifice my time to accompany him when he requested me to be with him,
even though i was tired, still i following him along to be his "angle" to go wherever he went..
now i felt like this relationship is being replace by money and the materials..
that the pause between u and i...
when will it be the ending...

or there will be no ending between us...
I wish God could treat me fairly...

SORRY...

these few days i was really sad and moody..
i found myself very useless...
i am not so good in handle my problems anymore,
i am not able to accept all the things that happened around me positively...
am i that worst now???

I felt bad towards the patient, another young MR.TAN again..
i was totally not confident toward myself to do any procedures,
again and again my hand was shaking in front of the patient
and the worst thing is he noticed my "parkinson's disease."
I just felt bad for the patient
how can he be so unlucky that get such a nurse to taking care over him.
The first day i did the STO at the nose- hand was super super shaking.... shake until I can't get the knot, until the teacher asked me to take a deep breath, until the patient says your hand shaking kah... SPEECHLESS

2nd day- Suture removal at the hand- hand still shaking... better... but i take long time to hold the suture and cut it... patient's eyes was widely open and look at us,
he must be thinking what am i doing, how can i take so much time to cut the suture...
the situation Is very KAN JIONG....
After that- near the end of the shift, patient said to us: you have to go and find other patient cut already, I have no more suture for you to cut ..
the word seems like so cruel... i know i did so bad towards him and give him a bad impression...
So sorry for frightened him throughout this week.
hope he will get well soon la..

yeah...
加护病房再见咯！
哈哈。。。

mh posting

working in MH is not an easy job..
I was bring my anxiety and scarred feeling all the way to there..
i was having insomnia
i think of the patient
the scarry scene appears when i close my eyes.
i was so scarred throughout the night
the wednesday night
i was so lonelly. i was thiking of having those hallucination also..
i was thinking i am going to admitted to mh hospital soon..
my mind was fully occupied that night..
i think of Melloney, i think of ah choo, i think of salamiah.
their facial expression, their action keep on appearing..
walao...
i was struggling that night..

爱情

其实我很在乎
我为你的付出
你对我的关怀
我真的很在乎

一段感情里
没有了信任
那就不是真正的爱情
我在等待真正的爱情
因为我知道
我们的关系已经变质了

过去的
已经是“曾经”
未来的
还在等待

就让沉默
就让时间
就让勇敢
来带领我走下去

=.=

As the time passing by,

I felt that I am growing up,

I met all kind of trouble throughout my life,

I thought I am the one that need to bear all the burden,

I thought I have the heavy burden,

but not you,

now anly I realize YOU are the SuperGirl.

YOU are so brave, and you are so strong to carry the pain,

I believe you can make it.

I will be there always when you need me.

Even we are not so close compared to others.

As a friend, I just want to let you know,

YOU ARE REALLY STRONG!

GET WELL SOON..

happy day!

hooray..
even though is tired but i get a lots of LAUGH today..
Thank you u guys...
even though sometimes a little "sengek"
今天所做的傻事，
今天的笑声，
今天的冷笑话，
还有MC DONALD + YOGHURT + HONEY STAR...
JETTY 那超级窄的梯子，
那些在海上飘的水母，
还有KTM，
其实真正的目的是去吃点心！
好久没那么放肆了！
万岁！！！！

IS the time for break!

Time seems like flying...
another week has passed...
wooo...
The 8 quizzes i already overcome with it even though I not scored well,
still i happy with it..
I have HARDINESS..
yeah yeah..
I am strong!
As i am still surviving....

DERIT...

我觉得人际关系好难处理，
因为我把它处理得乱七八糟，
而且弄得自己快要崩溃了。
因为没有人能好好听你的，
除非你是厉害或是能给他们带来利益。
这就是现实的社会!

愁

我是怎样的人，我不懂!

最近，我好像到处惹人讨厌，

人家说我一直要跟他找麻烦，

其实他有在检讨自己吗？

为什么我会这样对他，

是他自己没有遵守游戏规则在先，

现在去一直在怪我一直找架吵，

给了他机会，又一直放我飞机，办不到一声也不说，

就让我痴痴地等，或许他觉得我很大方，

他说犯的错我都能原谅，

很想告诉他，以前的我是这样没错，但我现在不要再当被埋在鼓里的女生了，

我只是想开开心心和你在一起，

对彼此坦白，

是你自己不要合作，

而且最近你也会在我面前大声说话，

我觉得你变了，你觉得我变了，

就这样，我们的感情世界。

好象在演戏给外人看，外人都觉得我好幸福，

找到一个爱我又有钱可靠的一半，就连我家人也那么想，

=他犯的错，他们只会说，就让他去吧，反正他还年轻，

年轻人总不能没有去酒吧见识啊！不要再跟他吵了啦！

就连我家人也站在他那里，

他们又想过我的感受吗？他又有为我想过吗？

在我的面前被别的怒人牵着手，

在我的面前和别的女生贴耳的谈天说笑，

而我被忽略了也不能怎样，只能做着静静地，扮大方

朋友们都给了我很多意见和鼓励，但我还是走不出去，很抱歉！

好象都白费了他们的心思。

我是一个笨女孩，为什么还不离开，

我自己也给不到我自己一个合适的答案！

- Ah Love, Love, … Love, Love, Love, Love, Love. by Ronberge (anno primo)

- Ah Love, Love, … Love, Love, Love, Love, Love. by Ronberge (anno primo)

A TRUE FRIEND

A TRUE FRIEND IS THE ONE WHO PICKS U WHEN U FALL
A TRUE FRIEND IS THE ONE WON'T LIE
A TRUE FRIEND IS THERE WHEN U CALL
A TRUE FRIEND JUST KNOW WHAT TO SAY
A TRUE FRIEND WON'T CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK
A TRUE FRIEND WILL HELP U FIND YOUR WAY
A TRUE FRIEND WILL MAKE SURE U WON'T SINK
A TRUE FRIEND WILL KNOW WHEN SOMETHINGS GOES WRONG
A TRUE FRIEND MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE U BELONG

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

yesterday i went to queensbay with rouyi, xinyi and ah tut..
Actually our purpose to be there is to watch movie..
is IP MAN again..
that was the secong time foe me...
After the movie, we went to buy a cake for mother's day celebration..
i brought a cake for my mum..
This was my first time to give my mum a cake to show appreciation for her..
Previously i never give any present for her...
and i get a carnation flower too.

i dunno how to described my mother's expression on that moment..
is kind of happy but still keep on nagging..
Why u buy for me, i dun eat cake, btw she is eating..
why u give flower for me, izit i will look younger after i get i...

Speechless...
But i still felt happy to make some contribution for my mum..

MUmmy I LOVE U...

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

：@

今天我又被人家所说的话影响了我的心情，
一个朋友不遵守诺言，
把我们之间的对话告诉了别人，
他告诉人家我对她很失望，
的确她的决定让我很失望，
但也没必要去告诉别人吧，
他好像误会了我很在乎他，
她是否有点变态？
我真的不明白他在想什么，
其实我是想告诉她，
他并不属于我的什么，
我不曾在乎他，
我只是身为他的朋友在帮他，

我相信她会读到这一段我写的，
只想告诉他，
请你在说话之前把话清清楚楚的过滤一遍，
不要让人有误会。
而且请你不要再把我牵涉在你们之间的问题。
给我感觉到你是个长不大的孩子！
你并不会给人家帮助，
反而给人家带入更多的麻烦！

我相信你自己知道你是谁吧！
是一个我常会接触， 碰面的人，
请你别再哪里制造更多的纠纷，
对社会没好处的嘴巴闭起来，
没人会说你是哑巴！

要怎样面对她？

考试又要到咯,

再过两个星期就是COLLOGE FINAL

有点担心了。

有时候的我真的很矛盾，很自私，
常常在提醒自己要改掉这个坏习惯，
但是有觉得自己还是老样子，
或许有些人会觉得我很健谈，
但也会有人觉得我很烦！

最近的她好象不一样了，
其他的室友也这样跟我说，
观察了一阵子，我也这么觉得，
她一直在跟我们说谎，
老是用别的借口来掩饰自己在读书，
我不懂她在所什么心机，
总之就一直骗人说她凌晨起来是因为肚子疼，
事实上她在读书。

我们最近都在暗示她其实我们知道她在干嘛，
她好像内疚了，不好意思了，
一直帮我洗衣晒衣，帮我做这个，帮我做那个，
以前他不会这样子的，
我觉得好恐怖哦！
现在就好像是我欠了他一样。

命运

你知道吗？
当我回到家，看到桥上贴着一张纸，上面写着：涂府丧处，我真的有点不敢相信，
他人很好，很厉害赚钱给孩子们读书，
可是在他还没能见证孩子们的成就时，却离开了他的家人。
有人告诉我那是命运，真的是太可怕了，
命运让他抛弃了他的家人，家人不懂得要怎么反应了，
旁人却在那里觉得同情。
我想他的家人一定很难受，
但愿神能保护他的家人！

我需要你们的指点！！

我并不清楚我现在的态度，性格是怎样，我只知道我好像又做错事情了。 两个星期的社会服务竟然会发生这样的事情。和八个同班同学一起出去，其中一个是我看了很不顺眼的同班同学，对我来说我们的关系就只是同班同学，对，同班同学，不是朋友。结果我就控制不了我的嘴巴，在车上一直顶撞她，我很坏吧！现在想回去真的觉得有点过分，要是是我被人顶撞的话，我也会很生气！但好像整辆车的人都会很不爽她！其实她的态度真的很差，老是要抢风头，不懂又要装懂，人家讲了她，纠正她，她总会反驳，坚持她是对的。更可恶的是她竟然抄袭我的功课！我的付出就这样被她夺走了，真是无言！可是现在我的心情很乱，突然间又被老师叫进辅导处，告诉我要懂得怎样坚持，分辨对错，要是自己是对的就要说出来，但要在适当的时间，适当的地点，我不是很明白老是要表达的是什么，是不是老师在暗示我不应该这样顶撞她呢？过了一下我就走回班上了。真的不懂要怎样处理，虽然朋友只告诉我专心读书啦，不用去管它，但是我就是烦到不能专注在温习功课！
怎么办，是我想太多了，还是我真的需要改正我的行为了！你们和我一起会觉得难相处吗？

18/02/2010

ANOTHER LOST AGAIN...
This time is my handphone
maybe i am not "NGAM" with sony hp...
why recently i am so "black"
Lost and lost..
but no earning...
HAIX>>>

A lesson for me..

26/01/2010
the first time in my life i lost my pouch which have a handphone, ic and license inside..
after i finished my work, i tried to look for it,
but it already no longer inside my skill lab kit.
woo..
unbelieveable...
it must be somebody steal it.
must be SHE...

A lesson for me..

解脱

Another episode happened last tuesday,
for me,
it just like a skit for people to laugh,
Her story was really LONG..
And the skit is really "FANTASTIC"
if u missed it u really "zao pou"
those reading this will wondering who am i talking about..
Here i will tell u, is a girl that very childish, irresponsible, do not know how to respect people, vain, has super high self esteem, extremely beautiful......
those who know me will know who is she..
Hopefully he will get through it without let all the family members dissappointed.
"ti gong pek dun let him do any wrong decision, po pi"