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一次又一次被我看到我最不想看到的你！ 什么时候你才会变回从前的你！还以为是你的在乎所以给我这一切，可是我看到的。 忍吧忍吧，再忍吧。 让自己平静下来准备考试吧！今天就当作是个教训，谁叫你不懂得坚持主见。 望着海，听着海浪声， 一个人凌晨坐在海边的感觉蛮不错的！加油呸！

TIME FOR BLAMMING AGAIN...

oh my god...

Final exam is coming soon...

left 4 more days for me to prepare for 3 subject...

Is really challange me..

No revision week for us..

working more than 8 hours full shift everyday...

physically and emotionally tired...

where to get energy to sit down and do revison...

Working in ward is just practice the skills,

no post conference where to get revision on disease...

Everyday day also serve medcine basic care..

where is the time for case study..

What i can say is all of you are genius...

what u all have gone through doesn't meant that we should have it..

please be more kind and considerate to us laaaaaaa.....

POD

Feeling not bad today..

Manage to function,

even not so good..

but is ok...

able to sleep, able to eat...able to laugh..

Hey friend, dun worry i am ok...

i felt the pain

another attack again ..
i have to handle it wisely, final exam is coming in two one week time,
please give ma a clear mind to do my preparation..
as i cant afford to pay for 60k..
i wish i could be a person without feelings.
i dun not wan to be foolish anymore,
but he seems like can't get what i meant~
why should him blamed on me~
always and always...
forgive and forgive~~ this is what i usually have to do..
or else he will always pretend nothing happen..
but I can't!
i was really tired in handling it
can u just tell me what u want
and can u just listen to me if u still a human being!
What i need is just your support and concern for me to go through the tough time..
Cant u help me...
In your eyes noe is just money and money, friend and friends...
What else u know about me..
i dun not want u to give me your money to replace u..
that is not what i wan..
u were saying your earning money is important,
but how about me..
study and be a nurse also important for me, did you know that.
i am not mad, just stubborn because of u.
I can fully agree that after being in a relationship u will lost all your friends...
it is so true..
i felt innocent...
i was trying to sacrifice my time to accompany him when he requested me to be with him,
even though i was tired, still i following him along to be his "angle" to go wherever he went..
now i felt like this relationship is being replace by money and the materials..
that the pause between u and i...
when will it be the ending...

or there will be no ending between us...
I wish God could treat me fairly...